Well I figured having a baby just wasn't enough change so I got a new job at eImagine on the northside of Indy. Having finished my first week which has included two night of 3+ hour maintenance and client projects, I'm having serious doubts about the decision I've made. I thought for years Emmis was going down the drain (which is probably still true), but I definitely took for granted a lot of the nice-to-haves that I don't have anymore. 8+ year old servers, consumer-grade laptops, no Group Policies to speak of, no documentation, tiny cubes are now my new reality. At least I'm making more money, but the health care coverage is garbage so it's almost a wash. Hopefully I can turn things around and clean up the mess the previous sysadmin left me but it's going to be a long...long road. Hopefully I don't burn out before I get to the promised land.
In much better news...
In much better news...
I'm having a boy!
Here he is in all of his glory:
The current names in the running are Owen, Eli, Elias, Elijah, Liam, and Titus. I'm a fan of Titus personally since it just sounds cool & it's Biblical. Megan's a fan of Owen, so sorry buddy, she's going to win on this one.
We're also thinking of putting the house up for sale since the new gig is a 45-minute drive away. Thank God the 23-year old me refinanced at 3.1% for 15 years but getting everything ready to show the house is about to give me an ulcer. Hopefully we can find something semi-affordable on the north side but I have my doubts.
As excited as I am to hold my boy for the first time, I hope he stays in there long enough for me to get things figured out. I'm both excited and terrified of having at the same time. I can't imagine having a kid to take care of in the midst of all this chaos surrounding me. I really hope I'm a good father. I have serious doubts about my ability but hopefully God will fill in the gaps.
All of my family is thinking he's going to be a redhead like me, but coming from years of experience as a ginger, I pray to God he has mercy on this child and makes him have blonde/brown hair. This kid is already cursed by getting my genes, but let's hope Megan's genes win out.
Megan is really showing these days and seeing the 2nd ultrasound with him wiggling all around and his hands touching his face is the most surreal & awesome experience I've ever felt. There was this overwhelming feeling of wanting to protect and provide for my little guy. I have all of these hopes for him and hope I can teach him to avoid all of the pain in this world. As long as I can teach him to make Christ his Father, he'll turn out fine. No matter the world throws at my son, Christ will be right there with him even when I can't protect him.
Father, please give me the wisdom to be a father and the strength to hang on when the storms of life come. This storm will surely pass and at the end of the clouds my baby boy is there waiting for me to show him how to be a man.
We're also thinking of putting the house up for sale since the new gig is a 45-minute drive away. Thank God the 23-year old me refinanced at 3.1% for 15 years but getting everything ready to show the house is about to give me an ulcer. Hopefully we can find something semi-affordable on the north side but I have my doubts.
As excited as I am to hold my boy for the first time, I hope he stays in there long enough for me to get things figured out. I'm both excited and terrified of having at the same time. I can't imagine having a kid to take care of in the midst of all this chaos surrounding me. I really hope I'm a good father. I have serious doubts about my ability but hopefully God will fill in the gaps.
All of my family is thinking he's going to be a redhead like me, but coming from years of experience as a ginger, I pray to God he has mercy on this child and makes him have blonde/brown hair. This kid is already cursed by getting my genes, but let's hope Megan's genes win out.
Megan is really showing these days and seeing the 2nd ultrasound with him wiggling all around and his hands touching his face is the most surreal & awesome experience I've ever felt. There was this overwhelming feeling of wanting to protect and provide for my little guy. I have all of these hopes for him and hope I can teach him to avoid all of the pain in this world. As long as I can teach him to make Christ his Father, he'll turn out fine. No matter the world throws at my son, Christ will be right there with him even when I can't protect him.
Father, please give me the wisdom to be a father and the strength to hang on when the storms of life come. This storm will surely pass and at the end of the clouds my baby boy is there waiting for me to show him how to be a man.
I can't wait.
I love you so much son!
-Joel
(P.S. Your mom can't wait for you to stop kicking her bladder. If you could stop, that'd be great.)
-Joel
(P.S. Your mom can't wait for you to stop kicking her bladder. If you could stop, that'd be great.)